I Wish This Was A Joke...

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

I wasn't nervous these past two weeks until today. I knew whatever happened God would take care of me but I couldn't stop my mind from running wild. I listened to my favorite Christian songs all day and tried to keep calm. Once I arrived I was put in the room quickly and waited. Waited for what felt like an eternity.  I know Jesus was in that room with me.  There was this warm peace that I couldn't muster up the strength to find until just then.

Once the doctor arrived she asked me how I was healing. We reviewed my before pictures then my results. The spot on my toe was benign. Thank you Jesus. The spot my leg was not.

Melanoma. The ONE word I did not want to hear.  I never thought it would come to this point, that it would be this bad. I thought maybe they would just be precancerous and nothing else.  But no, malignant melanoma.  As scary as that sounds the doctor explained that it's actually the best worst case scenario.  The cancer is only .33mm thick and stage zero. It has not reached the area where they would be concerned about it spreading to other parts of my body. She was glad I came in when I did. And so was I.

While it's a very terrifying and real situation I'm so thankful that it wasn't worse.  I will have blood tests, X-rays and surgery to make sure all the cancer is removed. I will have screenings every 3 months for a pretty long time.  And you better believe I'll be wearing SPF 30+ every time I'm in the sun.

I say all that to get to the real purpose of this post. Friends, please please please get a skin cancer screening as soon as possible. Time is of the essence!  I'm willing to 
bet that a lot of you are like me. You enjoy your time in the sun (or even worse the tanning bed), maybe use SPF 8 (or nothing at all) and really don't want to think about the consequences.  You think nothing bad will happen, it's just a tan!  Or perhaps you realize what could happen but you're too afraid to just take that next step and get checked. 


I'm so glad I stopped procrastinating and faced my fears.  It could have been much, much worse.  As He always does the Lord was looking out for me.  He always takes me to the very edge of what could be a horrible ending and redeems me.  That's how I know He's with me.  And like the words from my new favorite song "Oceans" by Hillsong United, I know "You've never failed and you won't start now."  

If my story keeps at least one of you from getting skin cancer then it will all be worth it. 

"Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)"
You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine


  1. Hey Heather, I doubt you remember me but I went to Parker with you and graduated in 03. I just wanted to let you know that I will be praying for you as you go through this. I know you're scared, but God has this and SOON you'll be able to say by His grace you are a cancer survive and He will use that for His glory. Try not to worry. Good has you in His hand and He won't let you go. Love and prayers, Jill Popwell

  2. Survivor* & God* (I really should proofread.) ;)

  3. Survivor* & God* (I really should proofread.) ;)

  4. Thanks for sharing your story! Prayers for you!!

  5. I am so sorry you had to go through getting that news. I can't imagine how scared you must have been and how probably a million things, including little Graham ran through your head. My mom has been diagnosed with Melanoma twice and they were able to get everything each time! Ever since she was diagnosed several years ago, I was put at a much higher risk and have been seen ever since then every year for check ups. I now have to deal with my Crohns medication putting me at an even much higher risk for developing it, so needless to say they watch me like a hawk. Good for you for keeping a positive mind, and knowing things could be much worst. Will continue to keep you in my prayers and pray for the Doctors who will be removing it that they get everything in their first try! Love you girl! Stay strong!

    1. Thanks Traci, I'm so glad you're on top of it!

  6. Glad you took the leap to get the testing done. What did the spot look like that made you think it could be cancerous? Did you go to your regular doctor or a specialist? Lots of prayers for Grahams mommy!

  7. God is so Merciful!! I have spots that I think "could" be something but also could totally not. So I don't look like an idiot asking a doctor, what did your spots look like? thanks

  8. Oh this gives me the shivers. Thank you for writing this post, and for challenging us all to do a skin cancer screening. I've set a goal to not tan in a bed at all this year + will include seeing a derm for the first time as soon as possible. I've been meaning to as motivation to switch to fake tanners/mousses, but this honestly was the push I needed. Thank you for sharing your story ♡

  9. this is wonderful news. a friend of mine recently had stage 4 cancer and has just about kicked it. she is not religious but has a positive attitude that won't quit. i have always believed in the power of positive thinking but now i do more than ever!!

  10. ...and by wonderful news i mean wonderful that it is stage zero not more advanced!! take care of yourself :)


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